Lung came over the other day while Mishka was visiting,
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Fifteen after one in the morning, the phone rings.
“Hallo. How are you?”
“I just got in about ten minutes ago. How’re you?”
“I am drunk beyond my capacity for being drunk.”
“That sounds dreadful.”
“You have work tomorrow morning.”
“That’ll be fine. It’s inconsequential.”
“Are you still staying the night?”
“Am I welcome?”
“Of course you are. How long will it take you to get here?”
“Well, that depends on if I walk or if I drive.”
“Didn’t you just say you were incredibly drunk?”
“I believe it was the first thing I said.”
“Then you certainly shouldn’t be driving. I vote you walk.”
“Well, I don’t have a vehicle, so that rules out driving. My consolation is that I’m only about a half hour walk away. However, if I convince someone to drive me, I might only take ten minutes.”
“Ah, well, if it makes you feel better, it’s only a fifteen minute walk, not half an hour.”
“Good to know. I’m still going to try to expedite matters though.”
“I’ll stay up for you. Try not to wake my roommate with the bell, instead shout up to the window as quietly as you can.”
“Alright, I’ll do that. See you soon.”
“See you soon.”
The phone is placed back in its cradle. Almost aloud, she says to herself, “that man is stupidly erudite for someone so blitzed.”
He sits on my bed, talking to his mother on the phone, his car keys plugged into my computer, taxidermy birds at his feet, familiar with my room. I have already met his scientist father and taken pictures of them both. Possibly this makes me uncomfortable.
We have been reacquainting ourselves after six years apart in the same city. It has been interesting, though unexpected. We are very different people than when we first spent time together in the almost perpetual darkness of the constant heaven threatening raves and parties that we used to work at. (We met, like Shane and I, (and Jacques and T. Paul), as part of the first incarnation of C.R.’s Fr8-train Land.) I think we have far more in common now than we ever might have then.
Perched on the roof of his truck, we watched the night occlude the city from Spanish Banks and discussed stars and noise, art and engineering, information architecture, and how to wire lights to make bursts of sound, constellations of old ideas polished into new. When we drove back into town, swaggered into the bar, and kidnapped Shane to star-crash on my couch, it was like we completed a circle that took almost a decade to make.
At work, my boy haunts the hallway from months in the past. A reflection of when we sat here over our greasy chinese picnic and laughed over chopsticks and our mismatched everythings. His eager grin and long legs folded, the mischief in his eyes conspiring against my cleverness. It’s difficult to be there some days. I catch my ears bent listening and I almost have to close my eyes against the superimposed image of his voice sitting next to me. He’s hung up the mirror-ball I gave him for his birthday and sent me a picture from L.A. It looks like the perfect accessory. As consolation, it beats a drum within me like the clapper in a bell. We had a good thing. He remains the happiest part of my dreams.
These long summer evenings have been both good and bad for me. I’ve been getting up early, it being too sticky hot to stay in bed, but as the day molasses crawls down the windowpane of the sky, I don’t feel I’m accomplishing as much as I could be. I want to be as busy as sin, not living this meandering odd-jobs existence I seem to be dreaming up daily. Tuesday I’m on set again, but I haven’t heard about call-times yet. It’s still too early to say. My flashing re-boot of a film career is suffering from the drop in the American dollar. Crews are being pared down. It’s not as cheap to shoot here as it was five years ago. I’ve been keeping my fists up, but it proves to be difficult. The industry’s not being kind to any of us. It might be time to side-step into the Jolt and Doritos fuelled modern fortress of video games, like James wants me to.