way to go sherlock

*sighs* Ray hasn’t answered nor returned any calls yet, but that’s alright. I’m getting things together. Tip-toeing around as to not wake Adrian. I feel lucky that I’m even awake. I was up and too awake until crashing finally somewhere just past 7 this morning. Not packing or anything actually constructive, rather I was suddenly in serious conversation with some people back east. Unexpected conversation. Very. It’s hard to talk about certain things over the internet. Body language and nuance just get lost in the letters. Plus, well – certain topics are just going to keep you up at night, no matter how much sleep is needed.


name removed to protect the stupid

x: Peace!
j: Hallo!
j: How’s you? Haven’t seen you on-line in a forever!
x: guess what!?
j: you’re signed to a major label and will soon be rich and famous?
x: she’s tried to give me a ring!!!
j: So she’s (can’t remember name – I suck) asked you to marry you? It seems the year for it. You going to say yes?
x: I think so – I dont know. i love her –  its a big decision –  shes really wonderful, but….
j: not much I can say – never having met her, you being off in ontario and all
x: you could visit 😛
j: Heh. I think about it. I really miss back east. especially this time of year – going onto summer. I think about you.
x: well – i am pretty cool
j: *laughs* I mean – just suddenly the orange van will pop into my head and the smell of it when it was raining.  I don’t know. I imagine everyone has lives happening and I would maybe just pop up and trip everyone.
x: Id leave her for you – if you came
j: *laughter*
x: no – I mean it –  come sing for me again

So, yeah. I didn’t get much sleep.  He’s pretty scared about the whole marriage thing. It’s adorable in it’s own panicking way. I know he’s going to say yes, and I think knows it too, but he’s holding onto that last little bit of denial that says he’s young and free. I’m going to, I think, delete those logs. I’m unsure if I’m comfortable having this much vulnerablity on my hard drive.

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